Im Just Cameron. This is my Blog.

i have a confession to make....for the last 16 years i have been on giant treadmill that scientists like to call "Life". its a disorder called chronic treadmilling. Altho it might sound like a huge problem, its really not. luckally i can diagnose this problem so you can get help. do you ever feel like your CONSTANTLY moving foreward but your not getting anywhere. well you might just be a chronic treadmiller. I KNOW i was shocked at first too. over 300,000,000 americans have this disorder, so you arent alone.

anyway i was just playing around.

where is my life going? im 16 years old and im a freshman in highschool AGAIN. i STILL have not met garry coleman. i only own 5 pairs of pants. my fish is sickly looking. my calender is still on February. i have film i need to develop from LAST year at pineywoods. i prolly have lung cancer. my printer is out of ink. i dont have a drivers liscenze. and my cellphone has ceazures. i find happieness in the misfortune of others. Schadenfreude...its a german word that means malicious pleasure. its wrong but its me.... i wish i was a kid again. we had no worries. we could get happieness from watching a mouse with an increadably high voice play with his dog....quite a few teenagers would claim that alcohol is the only thing that makes them happy. for a little while in my life thats what i would have told you. how in 10 years does one go from watching barney and drinking from a sippy cup to watching movies filled with sex & violence and drinking out of a shot glass? i mean growing up is one thing...and im not saying to go watch barney. but i think i grew up a little too fast. i met a girl yesterday. she has my same PE class but she is at the junior high. she was sitting on the track and somebody said hi to her and she turned around and said "you sorry SOB did i tell you that you could Fing talk to me. F you." i was personally shocked. but when i look back on my life i was just like that in 5th grade. its just weird. IDK... anyway im out...

...cameron...

i feel very...chillaxed...with my life right now. i like how it is. its great. i have no complaints. i do kinda want a car. and a drivers liscenze. but thats not important. i wish weeks went by faster. they will never do that tho.

ONE NIGHT YEAH AND ONE MORE TIME
THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES
EVEN THO THEY WERENT SO GREAT.

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i havent posted a blog in a long time.. like a month or two. now i usually have a motive of sorts for each blog. i really dont have one for this blog. i cant sleep. OMG..this whole time i thought coolio was dead. he is so not. omg. i cant believe this. BRB im gunna go post a bulletin. ok im back. YALL i just coriagraphed 99 red balloons. i wish i had a video camera. i would video blog my ass off. i shouldnt say ass. why do people think its cool to drink coke. NEWSFLASH LITTLE POLAR BEAR: you dont look cool drinking coke. how come when we call some1 and leave them a message we say hey "its me"? ok so they can obviously hear that its you. if you had ANY doubt in your mind that they didnt know who you were than you would say hey "its cameron". i just really find Unnesessary things like that uhh...Unnesessary. for instance. bald people who wash their BALD head with shampoo. shampoo is meant for hair. not wrinkly skin. another example of Unnesessary things: R-kelly. why in the hell do we need a song called you remind me of my jeep. OMG R-KELLY TOLD HIS GIRL THAT SHE REMINDS HIM OF HIS JEEP. how frikin romantic. sorry. i kinda got off topic. ok maybe alot. my keyboard has 2 mute buttons. right next to each other. i have no idea. it must have been a mistake on HP's behalf anyway. one of those buttons is unnesessary. this fishbowl on my desk with water and rocks and no fish in it is...now do i really have to tell you...unnesessary. i miss krystlyn. she would sing none of yo buisness with me. not no mo tho. this is getting long and its getting late. or early. im fixing to make a list of all of the songs that i have listend to while writing this blog. it will be at the end tho. so me and blake are totally going to warped tour. AMERICA F YA. i cant frikin wait. AT ALL. coheed, the used, all time low. plust about 200 more. but no big. i need to check that date and make sure thats not pineywoods. that would be bad. i like dr. hook. ok well i guess ill go now. i CANT sleep tho. so have you ever been sitting their and all of the sudden you got a strong earge to get up and dance? its bad beacsue usually you cant if your in public. in the word of Bro. Mel "sometimes i think weird stuff".. I DO THAT TOO. well im off to upload some dvds to my ipod.
peace out nicka.

...cameron...

song list.
thnks fr th mmrs
coffee shop soundtrack
99 red balloons
shoop
none of yo buisness
dani california
tell me baby
colt 45
the bad touch

hmm i think i might be loosing it all. have you ever felt like everything is going down to a HARD crash to the ground. i get this alot but it always seems to lift back up. I JUST DONT WANT TO FRIKIN WAIT FOR IT TO GO BACK TO NORMAL ON ITS OWN. well its 4 in the morning and i havent slept yet so the chance of me going to church is VERY slim...i dont know why i cant sleep, i woke up at 9 this morning and i didnt go back to sleep so IDK...i have this heavieness on me and it just wont let up. its the little situations, like the one that me and megan talked about(by the way megan i thank god for out 3 hour phone convo because it really helps one out)anyway...its the little situations that make me mad the most. YOU(and you know who you are) try and make my life suck. tell people that you are going to make my life suck. and yes i admit you have. by taking all of my friends away from me. you didnt mean to. but its funny all of the things you could have tried to do wouldnt have nocked me down, but its just the fact that you all have a reason to hate me now and i didnt do crap to any-1 of you..thats the stuff that hurts me the most. i thought you people were my best friends and i could turn to you for anything but i see now that its not true because now when i see you in the hallway and you look at me and keep walking...that doesnt sound like a friendship to me...i thank god for the 3 of you that stuck with me because you have mad it easier for me...but the things i am feeling right now are true and they hurt. i still have friends but yall were my closest. you were my family and this is what i get...i dont understand how just bcause i have a conflict with her yall all have to separate me from your life. is it because you are scared of what she would say about you when your not around. my point = you shouldnt have to worry about a 40 year old woman talking about you. maybe a 15 year old gurl but not an grown woman. im done with that. its over.
next topic.

i need sleep. i might stay up all night and not sleep. sounds good to me. i might fall asleep during church tho. its a chance i will have to take.

i got it all out of my system so now i go.

comment me and i will feel beter about myself.

lovecameron.

B.I.S.N.O.R™

ok so hot hearts was alot of fun and now its over so the fun is over, and back to the real world...so how about we go to blog mode now...
;-)

now that its 2 30 in the morning and im eating cold pizza(FYI i just realized ive eatin nothing but pizza for 2 days) i realize that i cant sleep and i ALWAYS post blogs when i cant sleep...come to think about it i posted a blog about a week ago(to the day)(and hour)...lol...anyway hot hearts...mike satterfieldsteve feemelvin adamsnewsboysjason morantall were ok...mike satterfield(speaker) was good...he really hit home on a few topics that he spoke about. steve fee(worship) was awesome. melvin adams(mc/comedian) was very funny i have to say. NEWSBOYS(friday concert) were GrEaT...i really liked them and i wanna go order one of their cds from amazon. jason morant(saturday concert) was ok but i didnt like them as much as i liked everything else.!.!.!.!.!.!.<- that looks cool. anyway...i have set goals for myself that some may call unrealistic but i will prove to any-1 that they are not...just small things that have became my way of life and i WILL get them out of my life ONCE AND FOR ALL...and most of all im gonna try to fix things with my dad...that will be very hard seeing as my stomach renched when i typed that sentence...he makes me ill and i hate him and how he lives his life...but apparently that is a major issue in my life and i will fix it! i may take time but i really want it! im looking for a new band to listen to because lately i am sick of all of the music that i have on itunes..ipod. im listening to chiodos right now but it gets old fast...i am in a wrestling match with my mind now and for the last couple of weeks...i am struggling to live my life how i really need(and want) to and i seriously believe that my life is meant for so much more that what it is now and i will do what it takes to "achieve" that...
thats all i have to say...
sorry if its hard to follow, my mind is not as sane as it usually is right now...

B.I.S.N.O.R.™

cameron

ps...FYI...Broken In Serious Need Of Repair...

pss...i like this No weapon that is formed against thee shall prosper; and every tongue that shall rise against thee in judgment thou shalt condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord, and their righteousness is of me, saith the Lord
>Isaiah 54:17

ok so the total offness of this last week is kinda crazy....dont ask me why but its the little things that make the week off...like my phone got turned off for like a day...we ate at wendeys for the first time in like a year...my youth minister and his wife welcomed their first baby into our world...i am no longer a cardinal singer...i went down the fire ascape for the first time(at school)...i drove home from waffle house...and im eating cantalope.

i have no idea what is making me sit here and post this i just found myself typing this thing...i only have 7 blogs and i like to think that my blogs are important...i dont post those random blogs that say things like "im so messed up right now...thats all" no a blog is to important for that...maybe you could use a bulletin to let the world know that you are a drug head...JUST MY OPINION...anywho i think i might go to sleep for a lil bit, but then i wont be able to sleep later and it might suck so i wont wake up for church...OK i wont go to sleep BUT i have to go to sunday school tomorrow because i promiced christy gray...anywho...(WO DEJAVU) so i just took a break to make a few ringtones(ahh piracy) BUT their good and i like them...theese are all of the ringers that i have on my phone

its goin down(megans personal)
over my head(lyndsies personal)
im not ok(voice mail)
prelude 12/21(text ringer)
im melting(in your eyes)
love like winter(main ringer)
miss murder
mr jones
another brick in the wall
little miss cant be wrong
here i go again
Enter Sandman

and thats all...im sick of blogging...so this blog is finished

blog accomp;ishment level -9

cameron!

if you want to skip the meaningless stuff then scroll down until you see the bold statement:AND NOW FOR THE IMPORTANT THINGS IN MY LIFE

RANT

i wish i could close myself off from the world for like...a day at the least. think how cool that would be. in a house all alone with no tv, no radio, no people, no myspace, no cell phone, no anything...i think it would be VERY healthy for me to have a break from the entire world...i try to do it but it doesnt work....as soon as i get comfertable i get a phone call from one of my dear friends telling me how much their life sucks, DONT get me wrong i love you people and im not saying that its a bad thing that every-1 i know decides that "im a regular Dr. Phil"...BUT COME ON, im not god and if its so wrong that i dont know what to say then dont turn to me...AND ON TOP OF THAT...why am i the one who gets crapped on when I have a problem? i just post theese frikin blogs in hopes that some-1 will read them and comment but do i get even that? no...im not mad just frustrated, you know?

now that im done with that...
RANDOM

i think my new favorite song is "love like winter" by AFI
ok so i went to bed at 10 and i woke up at 5:45...no able to sleep anymore...so im up till church, i hope i can get a ride with some-1 other than leigh, dont get me wrong i love ya leigh but i always feel bad when i have to call you for a ride every time i go to church. its not like your going to read this but i might as well put it in here because why start a thought and not finish...

i think ill...

so my confession for the blog on January 7th 2007 is that i...well what do you know my phone just rang...sorry i cant tell you people, next blog for sure...its not that big of a deal just thought i would tell some of you people...well i guess not!!!

i love my friends...they are good to turn to when i have a problem...lol i made a joke!
i have to take a shower at 8 but its only 7.......i love dots.....OOOH CRAZY FROG JUST CAME ON I HAVE TO GO DANCE TO IT...

ok im back...

we ate DQ for dinner last night, it was good. my brothers best friend works their so he hooked us up and i ate WAY to many steak fingers...ya its ok tho im not full anymore...i wanna listen to something mellow or heavy...why dont you choose and tell me in a comment...
WOW IM ON A ROLL, HU?

AND NOW FOR THE IMPORTANT THINGS IN MY LIFE

im going to use the word god at least 5 times so if this offends you then click here to exit..lol ive always wanted to do that. but you better not leave!so its been a long time since ive posted a bulletin that gets all deep and stuff...but i will beceause sometimes it takes me writing this stuff down to see where im at...so it seems like i have drifted far from where i WISH i was with God and i know that i could fix that, but its time for me to face the fact that i am not because i dont want to chang myself and my lifestyle...to be totally honest i would rather sit here and watch a infomercial on the magic bullet cooking system then sitting down and reading my bible...i would rather sleep then wake up for sunday school...BUT would i rather go to hell then go to heaven...the answer is NO... it just comes down to the fact that my priorities are WAY out of order...and i want to put them in order...AND i want to fix things that im doing wrong...i want to fix my relationship with sky....it makes me sick that we were at one point BEST friends...i dont know who told you that i was talking about you and i really dont care but i refuse to sit back and watch a friendship that we had go down the drain.

well thats all i have got to say ill go now.

-cameron`

im gunna start this blog by typing 5 facts about myself...so you can get to know me before you read my blog...

1. i think that the best band of all time is matchbox 20 even tho they are gone now....i will always stay true to my band

2. i say the "F" word way too much...it just slipps out

3. some people think i am a drug head...no idea where that one come fromSKY

4. i only eat ACT 2 popcorn

5. christmas is my favorite holiday even tho every-1 else around me is sad at christmas

so thats it...im listining to my 90s playlist on my ITUNES i love the googoo dolls, so far my christmas break has been great...so far it has consisted of my sleeping all day and eating a crap load of food! wait thats usually my every day...silvia brown is on TV right now and i think she is a Quack...my phone is gone for good now...but i might get verizen so i can call the rest of the world for free...i wonder what mood im in? let me go look...OK IM BACK...im apathetic...i had to call james and ask what it meant...I EFFIN LOVE THIS SONG...i have no reason to be posting this blog...but i am...by the way that song that i was talking about is "hey you" by pink floyd in case you were wondering...i wish people didnt think i was a drug head because i am not...SHHHH STEVIE NICKS IS PLAYING.....ok STEVIE is done now im at matchbox 20 once again...so i think i might be rambling...I LIKE RAMBLING...have you ever heard the expression "there is no right way to do a wrong thing"? i think thats kinda funny because i can smoke pot and do it right....it cant be that hard...i need to take a shower and get ready for tonight...or MAYBE NOT...i am going to finish my popcorn...its ACT 2 so its the best...TAKE ME AWAY TO A PLACE WHERE THE GOOD TIMES GOOD TIMES ROLE...thats a good song by tommy lee...now im listining to savage garden...I LOVE THE 90s...OMG i just realized that i was born in the 90s wow thats so cool...

well im going to go now...

blog accomplish levil...0

sencerally

cameron