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hmm i think i might be loosing it all. have you ever felt like everything is going down to a HARD crash to the ground. i get this alot but it always seems to lift back up. I JUST DONT WANT TO FRIKIN WAIT FOR IT TO GO BACK TO NORMAL ON ITS OWN. well its 4 in the morning and i havent slept yet so the chance of me going to church is VERY slim...i dont know why i cant sleep, i woke up at 9 this morning and i didnt go back to sleep so IDK...i have this heavieness on me and it just wont let up. its the little situations, like the one that me and megan talked about(by the way megan i thank god for out 3 hour phone convo because it really helps one out)anyway...its the little situations that make me mad the most. YOU(and you know who you are) try and make my life suck. tell people that you are going to make my life suck. and yes i admit you have. by taking all of my friends away from me. you didnt mean to. but its funny all of the things you could have tried to do wouldnt have nocked me down, but its just the fact that you all have a reason to hate me now and i didnt do crap to any-1 of you..thats the stuff that hurts me the most. i thought you people were my best friends and i could turn to you for anything but i see now that its not true because now when i see you in the hallway and you look at me and keep walking...that doesnt sound like a friendship to me...i thank god for the 3 of you that stuck with me because you have mad it easier for me...but the things i am feeling right now are true and they hurt. i still have friends but yall were my closest. you were my family and this is what i get...i dont understand how just bcause i have a conflict with her yall all have to separate me from your life. is it because you are scared of what she would say about you when your not around. my point = you shouldnt have to worry about a 40 year old woman talking about you. maybe a 15 year old gurl but not an grown woman. im done with that. its over.
next topic.

i need sleep. i might stay up all night and not sleep. sounds good to me. i might fall asleep during church tho. its a chance i will have to take.

i got it all out of my system so now i go.

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