Im Just Cameron. This is my Blog.

hmm i think i might be loosing it all. have you ever felt like everything is going down to a HARD crash to the ground. i get this alot but it always seems to lift back up. I JUST DONT WANT TO FRIKIN WAIT FOR IT TO GO BACK TO NORMAL ON ITS OWN. well its 4 in the morning and i havent slept yet so the chance of me going to church is VERY slim...i dont know why i cant sleep, i woke up at 9 this morning and i didnt go back to sleep so IDK...i have this heavieness on me and it just wont let up. its the little situations, like the one that me and megan talked about(by the way megan i thank god for out 3 hour phone convo because it really helps one out)anyway...its the little situations that make me mad the most. YOU(and you know who you are) try and make my life suck. tell people that you are going to make my life suck. and yes i admit you have. by taking all of my friends away from me. you didnt mean to. but its funny all of the things you could have tried to do wouldnt have nocked me down, but its just the fact that you all have a reason to hate me now and i didnt do crap to any-1 of you..thats the stuff that hurts me the most. i thought you people were my best friends and i could turn to you for anything but i see now that its not true because now when i see you in the hallway and you look at me and keep walking...that doesnt sound like a friendship to me...i thank god for the 3 of you that stuck with me because you have mad it easier for me...but the things i am feeling right now are true and they hurt. i still have friends but yall were my closest. you were my family and this is what i get...i dont understand how just bcause i have a conflict with her yall all have to separate me from your life. is it because you are scared of what she would say about you when your not around. my point = you shouldnt have to worry about a 40 year old woman talking about you. maybe a 15 year old gurl but not an grown woman. im done with that. its over.
next topic.

i need sleep. i might stay up all night and not sleep. sounds good to me. i might fall asleep during church tho. its a chance i will have to take.

i got it all out of my system so now i go.

comment me and i will feel beter about myself.

lovecameron.

B.I.S.N.O.R™

ok so hot hearts was alot of fun and now its over so the fun is over, and back to the real world...so how about we go to blog mode now...
;-)

now that its 2 30 in the morning and im eating cold pizza(FYI i just realized ive eatin nothing but pizza for 2 days) i realize that i cant sleep and i ALWAYS post blogs when i cant sleep...come to think about it i posted a blog about a week ago(to the day)(and hour)...lol...anyway hot hearts...mike satterfieldsteve feemelvin adamsnewsboysjason morantall were ok...mike satterfield(speaker) was good...he really hit home on a few topics that he spoke about. steve fee(worship) was awesome. melvin adams(mc/comedian) was very funny i have to say. NEWSBOYS(friday concert) were GrEaT...i really liked them and i wanna go order one of their cds from amazon. jason morant(saturday concert) was ok but i didnt like them as much as i liked everything else.!.!.!.!.!.!.<- that looks cool. anyway...i have set goals for myself that some may call unrealistic but i will prove to any-1 that they are not...just small things that have became my way of life and i WILL get them out of my life ONCE AND FOR ALL...and most of all im gonna try to fix things with my dad...that will be very hard seeing as my stomach renched when i typed that sentence...he makes me ill and i hate him and how he lives his life...but apparently that is a major issue in my life and i will fix it! i may take time but i really want it! im looking for a new band to listen to because lately i am sick of all of the music that i have on itunes..ipod. im listening to chiodos right now but it gets old fast...i am in a wrestling match with my mind now and for the last couple of weeks...i am struggling to live my life how i really need(and want) to and i seriously believe that my life is meant for so much more that what it is now and i will do what it takes to "achieve" that...
thats all i have to say...
sorry if its hard to follow, my mind is not as sane as it usually is right now...

B.I.S.N.O.R.™

cameron

ps...FYI...Broken In Serious Need Of Repair...

pss...i like this No weapon that is formed against thee shall prosper; and every tongue that shall rise against thee in judgment thou shalt condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord, and their righteousness is of me, saith the Lord
>Isaiah 54:17

ok so the total offness of this last week is kinda crazy....dont ask me why but its the little things that make the week off...like my phone got turned off for like a day...we ate at wendeys for the first time in like a year...my youth minister and his wife welcomed their first baby into our world...i am no longer a cardinal singer...i went down the fire ascape for the first time(at school)...i drove home from waffle house...and im eating cantalope.

i have no idea what is making me sit here and post this i just found myself typing this thing...i only have 7 blogs and i like to think that my blogs are important...i dont post those random blogs that say things like "im so messed up right now...thats all" no a blog is to important for that...maybe you could use a bulletin to let the world know that you are a drug head...JUST MY OPINION...anywho i think i might go to sleep for a lil bit, but then i wont be able to sleep later and it might suck so i wont wake up for church...OK i wont go to sleep BUT i have to go to sunday school tomorrow because i promiced christy gray...anywho...(WO DEJAVU) so i just took a break to make a few ringtones(ahh piracy) BUT their good and i like them...theese are all of the ringers that i have on my phone

its goin down(megans personal)
over my head(lyndsies personal)
im not ok(voice mail)
prelude 12/21(text ringer)
im melting(in your eyes)
love like winter(main ringer)
miss murder
mr jones
another brick in the wall
little miss cant be wrong
here i go again
Enter Sandman

and thats all...im sick of blogging...so this blog is finished

blog accomp;ishment level -9

cameron!

if you want to skip the meaningless stuff then scroll down until you see the bold statement:AND NOW FOR THE IMPORTANT THINGS IN MY LIFE

RANT

i wish i could close myself off from the world for like...a day at the least. think how cool that would be. in a house all alone with no tv, no radio, no people, no myspace, no cell phone, no anything...i think it would be VERY healthy for me to have a break from the entire world...i try to do it but it doesnt work....as soon as i get comfertable i get a phone call from one of my dear friends telling me how much their life sucks, DONT get me wrong i love you people and im not saying that its a bad thing that every-1 i know decides that "im a regular Dr. Phil"...BUT COME ON, im not god and if its so wrong that i dont know what to say then dont turn to me...AND ON TOP OF THAT...why am i the one who gets crapped on when I have a problem? i just post theese frikin blogs in hopes that some-1 will read them and comment but do i get even that? no...im not mad just frustrated, you know?

now that im done with that...
RANDOM

i think my new favorite song is "love like winter" by AFI
ok so i went to bed at 10 and i woke up at 5:45...no able to sleep anymore...so im up till church, i hope i can get a ride with some-1 other than leigh, dont get me wrong i love ya leigh but i always feel bad when i have to call you for a ride every time i go to church. its not like your going to read this but i might as well put it in here because why start a thought and not finish...

i think ill...

so my confession for the blog on January 7th 2007 is that i...well what do you know my phone just rang...sorry i cant tell you people, next blog for sure...its not that big of a deal just thought i would tell some of you people...well i guess not!!!

i love my friends...they are good to turn to when i have a problem...lol i made a joke!
i have to take a shower at 8 but its only 7.......i love dots.....OOOH CRAZY FROG JUST CAME ON I HAVE TO GO DANCE TO IT...

ok im back...

we ate DQ for dinner last night, it was good. my brothers best friend works their so he hooked us up and i ate WAY to many steak fingers...ya its ok tho im not full anymore...i wanna listen to something mellow or heavy...why dont you choose and tell me in a comment...
WOW IM ON A ROLL, HU?

AND NOW FOR THE IMPORTANT THINGS IN MY LIFE

im going to use the word god at least 5 times so if this offends you then click here to exit..lol ive always wanted to do that. but you better not leave!so its been a long time since ive posted a bulletin that gets all deep and stuff...but i will beceause sometimes it takes me writing this stuff down to see where im at...so it seems like i have drifted far from where i WISH i was with God and i know that i could fix that, but its time for me to face the fact that i am not because i dont want to chang myself and my lifestyle...to be totally honest i would rather sit here and watch a infomercial on the magic bullet cooking system then sitting down and reading my bible...i would rather sleep then wake up for sunday school...BUT would i rather go to hell then go to heaven...the answer is NO... it just comes down to the fact that my priorities are WAY out of order...and i want to put them in order...AND i want to fix things that im doing wrong...i want to fix my relationship with sky....it makes me sick that we were at one point BEST friends...i dont know who told you that i was talking about you and i really dont care but i refuse to sit back and watch a friendship that we had go down the drain.

well thats all i have got to say ill go now.

-cameron`

im gunna start this blog by typing 5 facts about myself...so you can get to know me before you read my blog...

1. i think that the best band of all time is matchbox 20 even tho they are gone now....i will always stay true to my band

2. i say the "F" word way too much...it just slipps out

3. some people think i am a drug head...no idea where that one come fromSKY

4. i only eat ACT 2 popcorn

5. christmas is my favorite holiday even tho every-1 else around me is sad at christmas

so thats it...im listining to my 90s playlist on my ITUNES i love the googoo dolls, so far my christmas break has been great...so far it has consisted of my sleeping all day and eating a crap load of food! wait thats usually my every day...silvia brown is on TV right now and i think she is a Quack...my phone is gone for good now...but i might get verizen so i can call the rest of the world for free...i wonder what mood im in? let me go look...OK IM BACK...im apathetic...i had to call james and ask what it meant...I EFFIN LOVE THIS SONG...i have no reason to be posting this blog...but i am...by the way that song that i was talking about is "hey you" by pink floyd in case you were wondering...i wish people didnt think i was a drug head because i am not...SHHHH STEVIE NICKS IS PLAYING.....ok STEVIE is done now im at matchbox 20 once again...so i think i might be rambling...I LIKE RAMBLING...have you ever heard the expression "there is no right way to do a wrong thing"? i think thats kinda funny because i can smoke pot and do it right....it cant be that hard...i need to take a shower and get ready for tonight...or MAYBE NOT...i am going to finish my popcorn...its ACT 2 so its the best...TAKE ME AWAY TO A PLACE WHERE THE GOOD TIMES GOOD TIMES ROLE...thats a good song by tommy lee...now im listining to savage garden...I LOVE THE 90s...OMG i just realized that i was born in the 90s wow thats so cool...

well im going to go now...

blog accomplish levil...0

sencerally

cameron

so its 4:30 in the morning and im quite content....im listening to stevie wonder because i played through stevie nicks and i guess this is what was next...ITUNES...am i rambling yet? so when i say im content i mean im just in one of those moods where im like "ya" you know what i mean, just layed back and not caring...i would normally call it a "pink floyd wish you were here kinda mood" but thats not under the "current mood" catagorys....i deffenetly use(...) alot...im glad i got out of my wierd mood that i was in earlier...i was watching crime and punishment and i got so pissed off because the guy raped a gurl and got away with it IT INFURIEATS ME...i effin love styxx...DOMA ARAGOTO MR ROBOTO...i am ready for christmas...the christmas dance was tonight....MY FEET NEED ABOUT A MONTH TO RECOVER...i cant help it i was blessed with the ability to "drop it like its hot"...wow i cant believe that that guy got away with raping that gurl....DOMA ARAGOTO MR ROBOTO...YOU KNOW WHAT MAKES ME, ok well just a lil upset...73.998% of my friends call me cammy but every one of them spell it difrent!...BACK TO STEVIE NICKS...JUST LIKE THE WHITE WINGD DOVE...so i feel kinda tired but if i go to bed now i will not wake for church...OHH BOB SAGGOT...normally typing that would make me laugh...pepsi is kinda good.....i miss my cellular device...i called italy...i wanna take a picture of some water...WATER...WATER...WATER...ok im done with that...lonely train comes on next...SCORE...i might listen to wicked next...or possibly not...i got a new song on my myspace and i kinda like it...its old and remides me of the beach...BUT YOU CANT JUDGE A BOOK BY LOOKIN AT THE COVER...OMG i found a "current mood" that works....satisfied...or possibly not...deja vu...maybe sleep???or possibly not...omg i love this song...its new...its called "congratulations" by blue october and imogen heap

OMG im gooing to sleep...
GOODNIGHT ALL

CAMMY or cameron i just wanted to clerify how to spell that

now that its 2:30 in the morning i feel that i must post a new blog...AND at 2 in the morning i am more likely to tell you lots of information that i will regret later. so if everyone will get out your paper and a number 2 pencil we will begin.WHAT INSPIRED ME TO WRIGHT THIS BLOG YOU ASK? well I'm sitting in my room at 2:30 in the morning...so far i have been convened that i need million dollar abs; a bow flex body; a magic bullet cooking machine; a orthopedic therapy pillow; the all new non prescription Iceland health pain killer; Bishop Jordan's -FREE- written prophecy; the quick-brite mini swivel floodlight system; a invocare hoveround power chair or scooter, a prescription of non narcotic lunesta sleep aid; time warner digital phone, digital cable, and road runner high speed Internet; and the vaccum food saver system...ALL FOR A THOUSAND EASY PAYMENTS OF $19.99!!!now lets get down to the nitty gritty...i don't really know what I'm going to say yet so I'm just gonna ramble on and on and maybe eventually ill get to something interesting.so right now I'm listining to HEY YOU by the artists formally known as Pink Floyd. my cell phone still isnt back on, DRAG.i think I'm gonna clean my room tomorrow its getting bad.right now I'm on this small My Chemical Romance kick, one of those healthy addictions. i just watch the Ellen show about addictions. it has been 6 weeks since she has smoked i respect her for that. it seems like that is the hardest thing that i ever did with my life...some-1 asked me if i would ever start again and i thought about it and i went through what, in my opinion, was hell just to get rid of a disgusting habbitt and it wasn't worth it. anyway. I'm going to put a 4 word long sentence to sum up my mood right now...SON OF A MONKEY...close but no cigar...RANDOMNESS...maybe i should go to sleep...its getting late.so MUCH LOVE

~Cameron

PS. does barry manalow know that you raid his wardrobe?