Im Just Cameron. This is my Blog.

OK so some-1 asked me if I was having a bad day and (joking) I said no...bad life. And now that I think about it I am having a really bad week and its making me really depressed...the more I try to make it better the worse it gets...is this how the rest of my life's going to be...Suck really bad and no matter what I do to fix it, it just slaps me in the face and I find myself sitting outside staring at the gigantic water in front of my house?I wish it would change, I'm tired of being depressed all the time and no matter what I do I'm still depressed.I am always having a bad time but this week has been worse.Monday...nothing bad happened but I was REALLY REALLY sad (you know when you have a heaviness in your heart and you cant seem to shake it off)?Tuesday...I was supposed to have SI but I didn't because, I'm not going to mention any names (Mr. Miller) forgot to turn in the paperwork. my best friend told me she was going to kill herself. worked concession stand (should speak for itself) wednesday...ISS...i got to school 5 minutes late. got a tardy. went upstairs and Mrs. Martin told me i had ISS so i go back downstairs and Mrs. Villon told me i don't so i go back upstairs and a note comes that says send Cameron to the attendance office and Mrs. Villon told me that i do have ISS. ISS sucks. sat in gothic Cubical (personification BABY). my back was KILLING me. i was texting Tina and she called the ISS building and told them i had my phone out. they took it up. they wouldn't give me a chair so i stood up and said give me a chair or IM taking my phone and IM leaving. she told me not to burst out again or i would be OCS. they finally gave me a chair. finished ALL of my work the first hour. Mrs. dinger went into labor and left. they let me sleep. woke me up for lunch. took bite of sandwich and threw it away. went back to sleep. he woke me up to go get my phone. i went home and my and my Mom was frikin sleeping, after the day that i had i waited to have a Mom to talk to for 5 minutes but she wont even give me that. I sat outside until church. today...normal day.So as you read this can you please tell me why my week is been so crappy...because I cant seem to c it.Well, that's all Sorry its so short.

I'm Cameron... Im a christian. I make mistakes and I fall really easy. Sometimes its little and sometimes its big and it hurts but I always recover. I'm really quick to tell you my beliefs and how i feel about you. sometimes that makes people mad but thats me. I've changes alot in the last few years.(thats another blog for another time). My favorite things to do are sing, eat(of course), do web design stuff, and listen to music. I love my friends. I don't like very many people so if I call you friend then you should take that as a pretty big deal. My best friends are Blake, Sky, and Skylar. Ill start with Blake. you are amazing. I don't know what i would do without your crazy stories to keep me going... lol... sky. we have had out disputes but ill keep you around no matter what. who else would go to the movies and high five me every 5 minutes. lol... Skylar is my favorite cousin. She is kind of cool but she would argue with Jesus! And I don't know why she tries… I'm always right. Now just because I didn't name you don't think I don't like you. I just like them better… My family is great... my favorite times are when we are chillin at Ainey's house with Skylar and aunt Leslee listening to Savannah tell stories that never really end. Now a couple of other people who have really made an impact on my life are James and Leigh Gilbert. They have done a lot to put me where I am right now. Without them I would probably be an alcoholic pothead high school dropout who kills people and steals their mama's purse. James is my youth minister and will always have that role in my life. I guess its like a step parent cant take the place of your real one. Leigh is his wife she is great. You know those people who just make you happy when you walk in the room with them? Not that they are funny looking but they just have that thing. I don't quite know what it is. They are gone to fort worth now but its cool. Of course they will be missed. But like I said God has a funny way of doing things… for a while there I thought that it was actually about what i wanted(I know how stupid right?). Lyndsie Neie is like the big sister that I never had(HA)! she is awesome and she will be missed also. I think Teresa Collins is the best thing that ever happened to Stepford High School. I have T-Mobile. My phone is always attached to my face. I LOVE my Ipod. Well I guess that's all that I have to say.