goodbye old life
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
So I have a lot on my mind and I have to get it out of there...
as 1 more year in the hell hole that is know as BCHS is about to start I am saddened. It's not fun. And as if that isn't bad enough I get to start it with no people to help me out. James, Leigh, Lyndsie, Blake and now Danny are all leaving. All going to places that will be better for them (and that's great) but it is starting to become more real every day. EVERY1 IS GONE. And I am not happy about it. I didn't have a good night tonight. It was really crappy. I had a breakdown of sorts. Everything was going out of order and no1 was there for me. Sky was at her grandmas and Blake was sleeping I didn't know who else to turn to. then everything started to get worse and Blake finally woke up so I got to talk to her and I get yelled at some more and it really got bad-my throat started to close up and I couldn't breeth-Blake made me get off the phone and go outside and walk around.-I got really dizzy and threw up-now I have a good life. I get pretty much everything that I ask for but I want a lot more. Not possessions because I could have everything in the world and I still wouldn't be happy. I don't know what I want (I guess it wouldn't be a bad thing if every1 didn't leave me) lol. I saw Brittany Porter and Austin Bellaire at market basket. They made me feel bad because it reminded me of that part of my life that ended in a pretty messy way. I want them back. But I guess I can't get that. So now I'm just going to sit here in my room and wait for some1 to call.
Have a good day.
...Cameron...
